Charm ☼ 001 [text]

[hexywitch]

This is a terrible way to be officially making my first public post on this network, but...I'm going crazy sitting around the house, and I need something to distract me from everything. I'm not sure that this will help, but it's worth a try, at least.

Sirius died a few days ago. I'm...I'm sure there are people here who know him who...I don't know. I'd want to know. I've been told that people come back but...

I don't want to talk about Sirius. I don't want to talk about the fish. I don't want to talk about how everyone is. The rest of us are alive, and. That's that best we've got for now.

...and I forgot the whole point of this, which was to introduce myself. Hello, Vatheon. My name is Lily. I wish we were meeting under different circumstances.

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[video]

[hexywitch.livejournal.com]

[Lily had been avoiding video because she's been crying and looks a fright, but video is easier than talking at the moment, as her voice is still thick with tears. She just nods and takes a deep breath. He deserves an explanation.]

[video]

[got-it-memorizd.livejournal.com]

[He just frowns at her a moment, then glances away again. He never knows what to do when girls cry.]

He'll be missed.

[video]

[hexywitch.livejournal.com]

[She wipes her face, embarrassed at being seen in such a vulnerable moment, his reaction clearly showing his discomfort. But she still feels as though she needs to explain. To admit her guilt.]

...they went to save Claire. I was going to go, but James wouldn't let me. He said he'd go, and I told him he had to take someone with him. He had to take Sirius.

[Her lower lip trembles, but she manages to keep from crying.]

[video]

[got-it-memorizd.livejournal.com]

[Axel absorbs this, and doesn't bother to trouble himself wondering if this could have been avoided had he gone to investigate Claire's situation rather than believing her when she said things were under control. There's no point in dwelling on what-ifs. He's not even sure why it matters to him--it's not like he knew Sirius well.

[He frowns.]

It sounds like he went down doing something he believed in, at least. [Small victories...]

[video]

[hexywitch.livejournal.com]

[She laughs, but there's not much humor in it.]

He died rescuing a fair maiden from peril.

[She shakes her head.]

That doesn't make it hurt any less.

[video]

[got-it-memorizd.livejournal.com]

Pain is one of those things that never really sucks any less, no matter how used to it you might get. It never doesn't hurt.

I'm no good at consolation, but ah... well, Sirius was kinda my friend too, so I get it. [He'd say he knows how you feel, but... no heart. Yay semantics.]

Re: [video]

[hexywitch.livejournal.com]

[She sighs again and nods.]

I suppose it will just take time.